Reasons for not being around atm!

[razer121]

So...lets make this short! I've not been on for awhile as some may...or may not...have noticed! long story short me and my girlfriend split up, sad times! was really rubbish! 10 days later she hit a rebound and slept with someone else great! nothing like rubbing it in my face even more is there!
But add onto this i was stupid enough to top myself, i went deep into depression but luckily the docs got there in time..no thanks to the ex girlfriend lol. Either way she is adamant that we stay just friends...yet we sleep together only the other day my god head screw or what!
Now to add to all these problems...i nearly lost my job! yep i have to work with my ex, sucks even more! but we had a new manager come in who now picks her side and said a lot of nasty things, but that's another story! Also i was made homeless as i lived with my girlfriend but she kicked me out XD man it has been rubbish for me this past month!

To make things even more worse we had only just come back of holiday and she breaks up with me on her birthday cos of a silly argument...and now i have an engagement ring which i need to sell. You see i was going to propose to her on her birthday...god it all went to hell!

So thought i would have a rant about my life story on here and if anyone has some good advice send it my way I've missed out on a lot!
razer out

[Phage]

Out of my league. I think you have to decide if you really want to be with her or not.

My best advice would be to see a therapist about the depression and get a new job in any respect.

[razer121]

Thanks, i think i can easily say i don't want to be with her though lol XD after what she put me through i believe i would be a fool to take such a selfish person back. Of course having such a long relasionship does make it hard but doing the right thing is always hard right?
If you want me to be honest i have spoken to her and we have both agreed that to much has happened, even if there was a chance in the future is just not something i am willing to go through again. To much! i would be just waiting for her to break me again! or sleep with the guy again! yes screw that....

I have been speaking to my doctor alot he has been absolutly brilliant to me and helped in so many ways so yes i am sorted in that respect. Getting a new job seems tuff though as i am in a small town and TBH i do like my job out the back of tk lol

Thanks for the advice though it is appreciated.

[GeorgeStorm]

You've certainly had a lot on your plate recently.
I would personally try to separate yourself from your ex, it's clear that nothing serious can happen again (well, I doubt it) and anything physical/emotional you do with her will just further damage you in my opinion.

Starting to look for other jobs would be a bad idea, although obviously it may not work out.

Try to cut her off and move on with your live, you've got lots to live for, even without her (even though at the moment you may think otherwise).
Don't be shy for asking for help (doesn't sound like you are, great news about the doc really helping you)

[blueball]

Keep records of the crap the manager is coming out with in case you need it in the future.

[CAT-THE-FIFTH]

Why is the shop manager worried about the personal lives of their team outside the workplace?? It seems rather strange,and perhaps you need to consider whether the manager is acting within the remit of their job.

[kalniel]

Razer, long term hexus readers will know all about your interesting relationships and the strange decisions taken by you and those around you. It's already soap opera enough without adding to the exposure on forums, so if you need to talk about it, for your own sake, go to a professional.

[Zak33]

razer... /\ what he said.

there are threads of horrible life stories..but man you seem to attract a tad more bad than most my man. It's possibly time for professional help bud

[razer121]

Thanks guys, does seem i attract alot of bad crap eh? jezza eat ya heart out...well either way to update im pretty cool now moving on with it all and met a new girl...nothing major but it has helped alot and the ex is pretty much pushed out atm...just got to collect the rest of my stuff now...still havent switched my pc on since leaving! i dread to see the pics i know that i need to remove, it sucks but its life and ive got 2 kids which keep me going

It may not be for forums but i feel you guys give good advice if not alittle rude at times XD but sometimes its best to say it how it is lol x

[ZakWolf]

I feel bad for you man. :/ I'm new here so I don't know much about you, but it's good to see your life turning around with a new girl. On the plus side, you may not have been right for her. Its best to not get married in the first place, than to realise she was not the right girl then get divorced. Hope your life starts getting better.

[peterb]

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It may not be for forums but i feel you guys give good advice if not alittle rude at times XD but sometimes its best to say it how it is lol x

Direct, rather than rude, I think. (And please don't take 'snip' in the quote the wrong way.... although thinking about it.... maybe? )

[Lucio]

Oh man! Sorry to hear about your troubles dude.

Still, take this as a sign that you need to take a step back from life, depression is a sign that you've been ignoring your subconcious for too long, so get the necessities in order (e.g. job, housing, food etc.) and ignore the rest of the world for a while.

[GoNz0]

But add onto this i was stupid enough to top myself,

No you did not, you did a cry for attention and the weird thing is this threads not been locked, people don't try to kill themselves, they either do it with no way out or do a plea for attention, sometimes the plea fails if no one checks up on said person or ignores the "i can't take it any more" texts.

Well maybe it worked as she felt sorry for you and slept with you.


Man up and move on, you will kick yourself for that course of action a few years down the line when your older and wiser.

I may sound harsh but my friend did want to kill himself, he put his head on the railway track and destroyed more than his own life that day.
no letter, no text, told no one, headed out with a bottle of southern comfort and a plan.

[razer121]

Thanks guys before i start...no idea why i put an x on the end of that whoops!

Anyway looking back it was more so a cry for attention as i just had so much going on and couldnt cope just gave up! wow what a mistake it was..regret it now!

Some more good news though, i've got myself a flat and move in this weekend yay!

To really add karma to this story she is loosing the house she lives in and has no where to go...i feel like helping because i care about her still but see no reason why i should as she kicked me out wit not a care in the world!

Only problem ive really got now is she wont let me have some of my stuff back and i have no reciepts for them XD damn stuck on that one!

Still again thanks guys getting it out has helped me tones you have no idea really.

[GoNz0]

well if you feel mean, go round and hint about the new flat and if you feel its right to help, shag her then do a runner before she can pack her bags and follow you

[0iD]

Glad you're on the up!