After alluding to it in my networking thread it's only fair I elaborate somewhat:
I started having discomfort in my stomach around the start of April which didn't go away. 2 months, a hospital stay, umpteen scans and an endoscopy later it was confirmed I've got stage 4 pancreatic cancer that has spread to my liver and lymph nodes.
I'm on a course of palliative chemotherapy in a week or two that may or may not buy me more time than the 3-12 months initially projected but I can't be cured. Currently the symptoms from the chemo are worse than the cancer, and I'm on 4 cancer side effect mitigation drugs and 7 to mitigate the chemo.
Going from "I'm fine" to "be dead inside a year" in such a short space of time has been a headscrew to put it mildly, especially as at 37 I'm still young enough to think death is forever away. Telling my wife was awful, telling my parents likewise, but nothing compared to the heartbreak of telling my 9 & 12 year old girls that Dad won't be around much longer.
Having had time to reflect I'm being as positive as I can and will be trying to squeeze in as many new memories with them as I can before my time is up. Life also gets much simpler when you know its going to be short, you stop caring about all sorts of things that once seemed important but are now trivial.
Which brings me to this place. Its been part of my life for a
few years now and its a brilliant community. Thank you all for making it so, even if I've argued with you or disagreed with you. I intend to carry on taking part in the various debates on here until I no longer can.
Make the most of life, and those you love most. You never know how long you'll have left with them.