Melon Collie and the Infinite Sadness ............

[melon]

The wife's left you
its about to rain
you lost your job yesterday
and the car just broke again....

Let it rain ..
Let it rain....

[melon]

The day is full of suspense
and expectations unmeet
like a lurking suspicion
that there's more to come yet..



m

[melon]

I wander over to the window
and there I spy
a few dank rain drops glistening
in the mornings rise
there is no sound
nor a bird to hear yet
just memories like a faint whisper
from those years I forget...



m

[g8ina]

Feeling a bit sad, down, low, depressed, are we ?

[melon]

Feeling a bit sad, down, low, depressed, are we ?

heh its been that way for the last 6 yrs !!

How about you ,what brings you to blues bar at this hour ? ( drinks arent served till Eight )

m

[g8ina]

Oh the usual, excruciating back spasms 24/7.

I'll have a Manhattan please barkeep, heavy on the rye and three cherries

[g8ina]

Try the lyrics on this one.

[melon]

Oh the usual, excruciating back spasms 24/7.

I'll have a Manhattan please barkeep, heavy on the rye and three cherries

Done!

You actually got me in the mood to maybe drink myself , but I only enjoy drinking if I can smoke too which Ive not done for 3yrs ( im partial to clove which is an expensive habit to have )

Im not sure telling my woes ( what ultimately disabled me )would do any good ,as Im pretty tight lipped about it the nature of it for reasons i wont go into here .

I used to think I could beat it , but that day has long since passed , and the web around it grown smaller with each passing second that slips past.

Where can you go where there is nowhere to go , but within ?



m

[melon]

bah



m

[melon]

In listening to tea cups ( The dirty mix )

In listening to tea cups
it can be hard to find something useful to say
for those that are quite quiet
are often occupied within their own space

And although the tea cup is empty
And appears to have nothing to hide
It seems to enjoy creating a reality
of whatever it is you have in mind

The truth in that reality
is always kept in space
and those who least have it
always have more to waste.

[g8ina]

Have something to cheer you up

[melon]

Thats going to definitely find itself on one of my playlists.

Not actually depressed though ,although a lot of my thought streams may appear to come out that way perhaps .

I actually tried post on my blog to reflect on my year in captivity , and it ended up sounding more like a poem any way, so I just went with it and poured another cup of tea.

Its just made me wonder actually about how many things you end up doing indirectly through something else .. when the mind becomes stubborn and wants to do it certain way



m

[g8ina]

Very Tao....

http://terebess.hu/english/tao/yutang.html

some light reading for you. Lin Yutang is my spiritual guide and mentor, his translation of the Tao is the best I've found.

[melon]

Very Tao....

http://terebess.hu/english/tao/yutang.html

some light reading for you. Lin Yutang is my spiritual guide and mentor, his translation of the Tao is the best I've found.

Thanks , Ive really only listened to Alan Watts in the past , but its been a long time Ive looked at anything or run in those circles.

When you say mentor , do you mean youve studied with him in person ?

m

[melon]

Very Tao....

http://terebess.hu/english/tao/yutang.html

some light reading for you. Lin Yutang is my spiritual guide and mentor, his translation of the Tao is the best I've found.

What does this remind you of ?

m

[melon]

My one issue with Tao like most " paths " is it based on the idea you already have some form of freedoom or choice ( just not aware of it )
and that the body is separate.

I say this in light of my own issues ( as you know ) are not exactly straightforward and pretty much require my constant attention so I can never relax ( literally or in biochemical sense )

so my question is simply how someone can achieve tao when by default that very body they require to work keeps breaking down and becoming a constant distraction from that aim instead ?

obviously if i let myself go and did nothing eventually id be dead , and sometimes i wonder ( as there is no cure ) if thats is where Im meant to be any way - and where I would be if not for financial support.

Im prob missing a point here no doubt , but I do know that while tao is ok for things like poems its another ball game altogether if becomes a whole life objective instead.

In my youth before i became as I am part of that TAO came from the muse / unexpected heightened by death - but you reach this point as I am and there are no more surprises any more - eveything is dependent on something just to even move - as your well aware yourself.

I suppose my point is that the body itself is interwoven with our minds on a level we are unaware of and therefore I dont think its so easy to just separate the two or exclude - esp when you start looking at exercises that are designed to activate memories , certain states of mind through movement , posture etc

if you've ever read any of Gurdjieffs stuff on centers its pretty obvious in fact that everything is essential in its own place rather than without it - even ego - which can also happen on a more spiritual level too.

m