Me and my neck

[neckclicker]

I always had a relatively happy life, up until secondary school, where I started to get bullied.
This came to a head in Year 9, when out of nowhere the bully came up to me and punched me hard in the back of the neck.
Now I have seen a chiropractor (unsuccesfully) and am now going to another specialist who I have been referred to, who hopefully can relieve the problem, although I have been told I am probably going to have to keep the clicking/cracking in my neck.

It is this clicking/cracking which I have got ever since I got punched.
You could say that I may have got a cracking neck anyway, but I'll never know.

Anyway, this may interest the psychology students amongst you, I hope you can help (Yes I know this is no substitute for professional help, but as I am on a long waiting list, I would appreciate help from you hexusers!)...

Basically, every time my neck clicks, I get upset, thinking it shouldn't be happening, because I didn't deserve to get punched. This is annoying but I can live with it.
It is when I get an "extreme" case that I get upset.
Let me give you a real life example that happened recently:
Suppose I had to be on the phone for half an hour to my doctor about my neck (which I believe wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for the punch), then I missed the chance to talk to someone. (I heard them outside while I was on the phone, but when I had finished they were gone).

I then worried about this when I heard them the next day outside my room. By this I mean I hesitated and thought whether I should just burst out and talk to them or not, as we haven't really spoken before.
It would undoubtedly have helped my confidence if we had spoken the night before, but of course I was on the phone because of my neck.

I now think of many things that "would have" happened had we spoken, but that haven't happened.

You must be thinking: just talk to them now. Well thats the problem: I don't think this is "the right time" and am worried that if anything goes wrong in the conversation its getting too late to call friends for support on this.

It is this chain of thought: If I never got punched, I wouldn't have been on the phone then, we would have chatted yesterday, we could then have chatted more today, we would be on our way to becoming great friends.

that annoys me, because that is not true.
I could try and make friends today, but if it doesn't work I will be so upset.
Its like being normally upset at someone rejecting you I guess, but with the added damage of it being because of an old bully.


I welcome you guys to challenge my thoughts, and give me good advice.

Thanks in advance

[dave87]

Oh dear.


I thought you battled this one out last time?


However, if you want my honest opinion, stop focussing on something that happened eons ago and live your life.

[neckclicker]

i have been banned from proboards support for this.

anyone know how i can register on their forum and bypass an IP ban?

[staffsMike]

Banned for what? Hexites is how we refer to ourselves I believe.

[neckclicker]

for talking about my neck

[mycarsavw]

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[Theo]

Why do you keep copying and pasting the same essay across the internet? You missed out the "this is the last thread I make about this" bit this time, seemingly.

[pauldarkside]

Have you ever considered CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy)? Your local CMHT ought to be able to offer assistance by helping you to think about things in a more positive manner. Your doctor should be able to refer you if s/he deems it appropriate.

[neckclicker]

Have you ever considered CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy)? Your local CMHT ought to be able to offer assistance by helping you to think about things in a more positive manner. You doctor should be able to refer you if s/he deems it appropriate.

i've had it, was only allowed 5 sessions.
they were really helpful, but i cant afford to go private

[r_j_k_p]

should the thread title not be "my neck and i"

[neckclicker]

lol.
i ask again, how can i bypass an ip ban? all the proxy sites are blocked (college)

[Moby-Dick]

I don't know if you have realised that HEXUS isn't really a medcial forum , but that medical threads are specifically discouraged. Aside from seeking further advice from your local GP there isn't much more that can be said about this.

please don't bring it up again , there is a whole lot more to life.