Ok, this might seam like an odd rant, but here goes.
The company I work for, been a hedge fund are bleeding edge capitalists, they are ruthless buggers. Like most hedge funds they have been downsizing a bit lately as investor confidence is causing issues with the fund of fund clients. My desk head has decided to resign, closing on a considerably above average high, he is moving back home, he dosen't seam to like it here any more.
This has left me in a pickle, with all the buisness contracting, they simply don't know what to do with me. They don't want to make me redudant, but don't have any suiteable rolls for me. I am now in a back office posistion (this means i'm doing the digital equivilent of pushing paper around), surrounded by people who seam to be coding up boring data munging apps, that are only required because they are suffering by bad design to begin with.
In effect i've been demoted, only they haven't actually had the guts to tell me this, so I'm left with no work to do, and no boss.
The devil makes work for idle hands they say!
This week, i've spent no less than £500 on alcohol. I just feel completely empty, woundering what the hell it is i'm doing, i just feel the need to get a total change of space.
I'm stuck with nothing to do, so my mind is taking in all the problems around me, i've seen my friends be fired because a new manager fails to understand what they actually do, incompitent people be given more members to their team because their projects are failing. I'm worried that an ex of mine has taken her exit interview so badly she is going to give up working in computer science related disaplines.
The atmosphere of my friends is also unplesant, all the people i know from my first place are pissed off because their bonuses have been unfairly capped for a months basic, these are not people who are paid enough for that not to make a massive difference in their lifes. My friends at my current place are all quite worried that they are going to be fired, and they see me, been given a roll that i clearly don't want, at the expense of someone who had been doing it for 2.5 years. I feel like a total douche for getting someone fired, and then been ungrateful for the job, but i didn't ask them to do that, if they offered me redundancy i'd take it. I know this sounds arogant but I'm well enough above average that i've had my 3rd other offer in this week, and i've not even been looking for a job. Plenty of the people i work with (one college in particular) are not so lucky to be so known in the industry and I feel like i've got someone fired who is going to have a much harder time finding another job, when if i took a bit more of a risk, and resigned, it might not have happened.
This weekend is a landmark for me in a way, its 2 years i've lived in my own flat, I turned 24 last month, and my life just isn't a barrel of laughs anymore. It seams to be getting progressively worse as I go on in many ways. I've got less cash savings (new kitchen) so I can't take 3 months to find a new job, making sure its 'perfect' for me, can't go on holiday, and i've got a roll that i can't stand, with people who hate me because of the whole replacing their friends in that team thing.