At least now if I got bullied I'd have my abrasive attitude and sarcastic backchat....
At least now if I got bullied I'd have my abrasive attitude and sarcastic backchat....
I hated being picked on for the same old things that I had no control over. I had to have a cap on one of my front teeth after an accident when I was 9, it never looked right and was the source of plenty of taunts when I was younger. The feeling of wanting to fit in and the rejection from your peers is terrible.
I had a couple of scuffles but that only made the harder lads want to have a go even more.
I found my release on the rugby pitch which, for some reason, seemed to allow me to lose my fear of being hurt (probably 'cos I knew if I did get hurt play would be stopped and a teacher would sort it out). I was the smallest in the team and pretty tubby too, so I played as hooker. I gave as good as I got on the pitch, and often gave a hell of a lot more back. It won me some respect and a lot of self-esteem back. In the end my mum stopped me playing as I was getting injured too often.
I left the team but they thought I was a tough cookie and although I never went round with any of them, they thought I was cool.
Still, there's a few that I'd quite happily ignore if I ever passed them in the street, and one who I'd kill if I thought I could get away with it.
I met one guy a few months ago, he came into my store. I was in a suit that day, I'd been into London and was dropping stuff off on my way back. He wanted to grab a coffe and catch up on old times, as if we were best mates and all that. He seemed puzzled and angry that I blew him off with a "no, thanks anyway", but I'm not gonna kid myself about my past or let him think that what he and his cronies did is forgiven and forgotten.
I don't need those idiots, I don't need their respect or their acceptance. Who and what I am today, what I have achieved and where I am in my life I owe to my friends and family, I don't owe those bullying berks anything, not even the time out of my life for a coffee.
I got bulied at school, I was a fat kid. I bullied right back at the kids who were weaker than me, which I feel really bad about now. I am severely insecure as a result, which I direct towards curing my 'problems'. I am now thin, very fit, and outwardly very confident, yet I doubt I will ever feel content. The failings of my teenage years will likely haunt me for a long time. You see, I never fought back. I really believed that violence never solved anything and I never stood up for myself at school, and because I never faced those demons at the time, I am always looking over my shoulder for them.
I was, to my lasting shame, part of the 'in crowd' at my senior school, and as such, never got bullied, having said that, I wasn't really that arsed, I just happened to hang around with the lads who were safe from that sort of thing; not by a choice then, by a choice 10 years before, they were already my mates.
Still, I had friends from the slightly more speccy group of people, as well. I could talk about football with my mates, and by not being an arse to anyone, also talk about PCs to the people who wore glasses and unfashionable trousers.
Sorted.
I do remember buying £175 black Rockport boots though, as some of the lads had starting wearing them, and when we all had them, we would look down on those who didn't, I realise now what a fool I was... should have got the white one's, they are much nicer.
'Ave it!
Nice to know im loved by somebodyOriginally Posted by Moonshade
At least I know you lot are here for me, even if you are miles away from me
Sure you're loved by someone! Everyone at hexus is there for one another. I can assure you about that.Originally Posted by r1zeek
Well, don't say that. We're just (like a couple of people have told me) a PM/Msn/Irc - mess. Away !
You hang in there mate! We're here for you.
Love, Peace and Linux
I got bullied towards the end of junior school, but TBH it was more a reflection of my timid personality (which I blame my Dad for) and my obsessive compulsive disorder which made me an easy target (which is just genetics, I guess). I went to a private secondary school and was fine, I was right in the middle of the social pecking order pretty much, and I'd happily speak to the cool kids or the geeks.
To this day I'm still a bit shy and I was horribly lonely at university, but I don't think the bullying had much to do with it. I suppose it helps that at one time or another I fought back at all but one of my tormentors, so I haven't got much residual bitterness.
Rich :¬)
Got bullied a bit, mostly racist stuff but i realised from an early age to ignore them and carry on with my work ( was and still am a hard worker in school ). They soon got bored and stopped, i just thought of them as ignorant un-educated fools lol. Stopped more swiftly when i started sticking up for myself though even though i am quite a small guy.
SecondedOriginally Posted by Moonshade
Knox, what?
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lol, as in I agree we're all just a pm/message on msn away
Thanks everyoneOriginally Posted by Moonshade
Originally Posted by Knoxville
Oh, I see.. Sorry..
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I saw myself in more of a protector role. You see I come from a fighting family, my Grandfather was a successful boxer in the late 30's and late 40's and won an empire title which I know believe is the commonwealth title. My Father was a good amatuer nothing special but could hold his own no doubt. I got to three successive golden gloves semis in and in 63 amatuer bouts my record read 53-7-3 the 3 defeats just coming from the finals.
People looked on me with respect in my school days and never once did I feel I had to pick on anyone to show how manly I was. I did often find myself stepping in when I saw bullies getting out of order and this won me a lot of friends during my schooling years.
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