It's the weirdest feeling... only one dog in the kitchen, everybody looked a bit down. I had a strange feeling about what might've happened, but thought I was just being over the top, and was sure I was wrong. Then of course I'm told, and I was right after all.
I don't feel really upset, but then I'm not exactly that kind of person... just feel very down and kind of upset "beneath the surface" although I don't even know myself how much . She was only 5, and we've had her since she was 8 months old I think... spent so much time with her over the last 4 years because she was so irrepressibly hyper, always jumping around, leaping after things and generally going nuts, and if you weren't playing some kind of game with her you got pestered until you were.
I knew she was a bit unwell over the last few days, but I never realised it was this bad. So gutting to see her going from being utterly hyper, bonkers and up to her usual tricks, to barely moving, and then dead - all in the space of 48 hours. 5 years is nothing really