Pancreatic cancer and me

[cheesemp]

Just want to post and say still thinking of you spacein_vader. (Hoping no news is a good sign you are off enjoying yourself - posting here should never be a priority for you - but don't want you to feel forgotten for even a minute...)

[spacein_vader]

Thanks all for your kind messages. I've just spent the weekend with the family at centerparcs, in what is almost certainly my last holiday with them.

For 3 days, I was (most of the time,) me again. I did archery, laser combat and boating with them. The kids eagerly told me stories of how amazing it was seeing a sunset in the outside pool (I can't go in the water due to the line I have in for chemo,) and how amazing it was with the pools lit up after dark.

I paid for it yesterday morning when my body reminded me I'd outdone its current limitations but it was worth it. Memories I and hopefully they will treasure for the rest of our lives.

The best part was last night my Eldest finally opened up to me about how she's feeling about my illness and its end result. It was a hard conversation for us both but brought us closer and I couldn't be more proud of how resilient she's being. I just wish she didn't have to be.

Today I'm practically bedbound recovering, and I have chemo again on Wednesday. But it was worth it.

[cheesemp]

Thanks all for your kind messages. I've just spent the weekend with the family at centerparcs, in what is almost certainly my last holiday with them.

For 3 days, I was (most of the time,) me again. I did archery, laser combat and boating with them. The kids eagerly told me stories of how amazing it was seeing a sunset in the outside pool (I can't go in the water due to the line I have in for chemo,) and how amazing it was with the pools lit up after dark.

I paid for it yesterday morning when my body reminded me I'd outdone its current limitations but it was worth it. Memories I and hopefully they will treasure for the rest of our lives.

The best part was last night my Eldest finally opened up to me about how she's feeling about my illness and its end result. It was a hard conversation for us both but brought us closer and I couldn't be more proud of how resilient she's being. I just wish she didn't have to be.

Today I'm practically bedbound recovering, and I have chemo again on Wednesday. But it was worth it.

Glad to hear you're managing to make the best of the awful situation you're in. Hoping for many more good days.

[spacein_vader]

6 chemotherapy treatments completed with the final one last week. Had a CT scan yesterday. They'll compare it to the one I had before treatment started in July then on Tuesday the oncologist will be able to tell me how successful or otherwise the chemo has been in managing the tumour and crucially, a better idea of how long I have left.

Feel free to cross your fingers for me!

[Kovoet]

fingers and legs crossed.

[neonplanet40]

I'm crossing everything for you mate. I hope you get positive news.

[Rob_B]

They're crossed for you

[Jonj1611]

Fingers crossed mate

[Iota]

Definitely crossed for you

[sammyc]

So crossed, I think I've formed them into some sort of fisherman's knot

[g8ina]

Fingers, legs, eyes, testicles. All crossed my good sir.

[Output]

Fingers crossed here too.

[Saracen999]

Yup, likewise. I have pretzel'd myself, appropriately. Now I just have to work out how to have lunch while pretzel'd.

[[GSV]Trig]

I'm not going to tell you I have crossed things, because I haven't, however, I will extend the hope that you and whatever you believe in gives you the strength to be everything you can be, and need to be for your family in the coming years.
And I say years intentionally, with a smidge of hope.

[Ttaskmaster]

Yup, likewise. I have pretzel'd myself, appropriately.

Won't that also make it impossible to pee.....?

[cheesemp]

Fingers crossed!